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nothing is what it seems.

i think the main approach you need to take to life is to just make your own rules, think what you want when you want, ignore what anyone else thinks about you and just live what you are.

Music

Just literally finished off a piece for a guy in the first year on his summer project.

basically, had a drum loop about 3 minutes long, the original audio sound, and synced it up in Cubase SX.

I loaded the 3 minute drum loop (looped on final cut so there were a few timing issues :;:;:::;:!!ii) into my PSP, then feed it through the Kaoss Pad 3, direct into the computer where i recorded it into Cubase again..

Basically sat there workin out a program setup for all 8 triggers on the KP3 and then twiddled loads….

After a lot of twiddling I recorded three jams. I then went through it, syncing all three jams up and then cut stuff out that didnt work, or toned down little bits so they fit within the sound more. Lastly, throwing a tracks compressor, lil EQ, and limiter on there for good measure.

I think basically, this is an awesome technique i figured out tonight, for gettin the basis of a song concept/sound down. planning on figuring out methods to emulate the ‘collage’ effect ‘Jackson and his computer band’ aims at, spectrum of sound business.

The other day me and josh were throwing around methods of sampling stuff aswell. Basically, most things, if you constantly have the KP3 connected between your sound card and whatever your feeding into it, then you can just jump in a create mad sounds instantly. Have a cubase thing open, and just play. Josh was just wandering round itunes on podcasts and all sorts of random audiobook type stuff, just setting it off on his macbook pro and throwing it through the KP3 while I fiddled. Came out with some nice little bits we can just cut things from, export, and throw around in other ways as a concept.

dave.

Just remember

It’s all about the music… one on one

dmhn

Controversial I know…

So, I’m talking with my friend about morals tonight. I decide to come home and get on the ol’ internet and continue…

The idea i think I was trying to explain is this in a couple of parts…

Firstly, the idea that the history of the human race has already begun and what has happened has happened, any theories dealing with what might have or might not have happened if religion had never become part of the collective human conscious are irrelevant unless there is the possibility of a situation where these other paths are possible ( I’m talking about our evolution as a race so far)

Put simply, what has happened has happened, lets use that and carry on figuring our way.

Secondly, science is approached over and over with the idea of getting rid of anything that is ‘wrong’ or ‘incorrect’ or ‘untrue’ and essentially, in the simple X-files understanding of things, is trying to find the ‘truth’ that ‘is out there’. It does this by doing the above. Now, if we were to do this with religion we would probably be seen to be taking back a step, so to speak, because it would inevitably leave us with a massive bunch of agnostics, religious fanatics being brought to a basic belief of a faith for a higher power ‘insert generic name for generic higher power/God/gods/etc here’ and all atheists (like me) being dragged out of there little ‘there is definitely nothing’ hole back to the point where they’re saying “alright fine, I can’t definitely say there is definitely nothing because I believe in scientific understanding, and by scientific/theological logic and definition everything is theory and we can never know anything for certain” (again). Basically leaving two groups of people saying

A) There probably might be a God.

and

B) There probably might not be a God.

This ridiculous stalemate however leads us to a more level playing field where the ideas of arguing over the existance/non-existance of ‘whatever’ can be more freely thought/fought over using all prior knowledge gained through our trials and tribulations with the various religions and alternate held beliefs. However, I believe this is a logical and necessary step in this race’s (the human race) moral evolution as it allows all prior knowledge to be treated objectively and used for and against both arguments (due to the intense problem anyone religious seems to have when it comes to talking about religion on a personal level, various annoying things about respect and whatnot)

This I believe, is the next step we need to take as a race when considering our moral evolution, physical evolution could be considered to have been forgotten a long time ago due to the idea of ‘the strongest survive’ no longer being the case with modern technology. But maybe that was part of our moral evolution as we don’t feel the same urge as animals (to let the physically weak and broken die), as it is afterall one of the few things that actually separates us from animals. We feel an urge to keep them alive. After all, we would have lost Stephen Hawkings and the like (it’s far too late at night to do research)

So, point being, what’s done is done(History of EARTH), lets get on with figuring life out(Debating in the early morning), or at least arguing it out properly with two key points of view to the end of time without hiding behind all this ‘you can’t talk about religion because it’s disrespectful’ stupidness.’ (Political correctness/beating around the bush)

I don’t mean lets all run around calling christians wrong or muslims wrong or atheists contradictory (and therefore wrong based on their own logic) lets just at least each say what we think so we can get everything we know on the table before WE KEEP FUCKING KILLING EACH OTHER lets have a sensible conversation about this eye to eye.

a tired and angry good night/morning(afternoon and evening to some i guess, it is the internet isnt it so lets not be ignorant).

Dave.

ambiguous curio

Spinning. That’s what I’m doing right now. Not quite sure what to do or who to be.

I’ve said it before but I get really sick of people that claim they can’t change. If you don’t like something about yourself, the way you act, the things you wear, the way you talk, the things you say or don’t say. You can change anything in little more than just an instant. I flip constantly from pure postive to pure negative and I don’t know whether this is a good thing. I think sometimes I take so much of what I say to heart and  act too much on it. I’m at some kind of point now where I just flip and change into someone completely different in my head within a second. Moods hit me thick and fast, creativity can just explode but sometimes there’s just nothing.

I’ve spent years figuring out so many different ways of being positive and creating the energy to get up and live my life but they all wear off so quickly? either I search too much or I just get bored of things I’ve come up with too quickly. Some people have complained that I have too many ideas and can just get inspiration from anything and just through ideas out there left, right and centre. This is true, but I rarely ever hold onto any idea for very long.

I fill my phone with concepts for everything, from short films, to entire concept album ideas. Sometimes it’s a philosophy on life, sometimes it’s some ancient method of anything you can think of. Sometimes it’s just names of bands or even future production companies. Names for nu-rave albums, music collections. Anything, constant ideas flow out of me but I don’t act on anything long enough to get through it. Only when I’m forced into a situation.

Maybe I need to resort to the dice again. That sorted me out, I got more done in the short lived dice days. I still roll every so often, I did the other day to decide on whether to go out dressed smart or just go out in what I was wearing. I went smart if you have to know. Which, yes, involved changing. I need to buy some more dice, I spread the word so much and gave away so many I don’t keep it stuck in my head that I have the option to have no option.

What am I waiting for? That’s what it feels like, it feels like I’m waiting for something. But what? I probably need to make it happen myself. Dice dice dice dice dice. That’s it.

but why the fear.

dmhn.

all

all these moments will be lost in time, like tears lost in rain.

-Blade Runner

It’s true I guess. I often think about the fact that one day none of this will be hear. This blog could easily be sitting here 100 years after I’m dead but one day it will disappear along with everything else. The sun will die.

I don’t really see this as depressing, more interesting than anything. I’ve already accepted the fact that anything I do will only have a short term effect on a small radius, but maybe we don’t need to have any type of effect on the world

How about a mirror effect? or a ripple effect on the world? Maybe we can be happy effecting things outside of us that reflect things back onto us, or create a ripple in our social or academic sphere that just slowly moves outwards. I’d be happy with either. As long as I can interact.

Dmhn.

One hour off

I’m trying something today.

We all need a little more motivation and there are so many different ways of tricking yourself into doing what you need to do. Today I’m trying something new, one hour on, one hour off.

One hour doing something productive, not thinking about it, just doing whatever needs to be done. Then, I’ll have an hour off just browsing the internet, being generally lazy.

The way I figure this one, many days I just spend putting things off and not bothering with all the little things I really need to do, but then I just put them to the back of my mind and think ‘oh, I’ll just spend a day and get it all done’. But it’ll never happen, and if it does, I won’t be able to focus on things. for example, I need to make up and new CV. If I do this over the period of two hours spread amongst three or four then I’ll be focusing for a lot more of it than if I just kain through the whole thing in 3 hours straight.

Plus it adds a little variety to life.

I think the problem I have, which is the same as what many other people have, is that we always feel the need to reach some kind of logical stopping point for things. We don’t, it’s a simple lie we always tell ourselves, as long as we leave some kind of little clue as to where we were, our minds are naturally intelligent enough to pick up where we left off within a matter of seconds.

Example, when your reading a book? when you put it down you no doubt think ‘I’ll just get to the end of this chapter and then put it down’. But the chapter often ends up being far to long to complete in the time you have left to do it. Just put the book down, put the bookmark in and put it down at the end of the sentence you were at. Then figure it out next time you pick up the book.

I’m figuring this is a bit like dice theory, I’m constantly going to be thrown into situations, whether leisure or work, and I’ll make the most of each. That’s the reason I’m here now, I’m doing ‘leisure internet’ work.

Dmhn.

Make a lesson your own.

Things I have learnt this week…

Make something interesting, funky, stylistic and individual, but flowing within design as an outer leaf.

Go anywhere and meet anyone, because people are never what they seem.

Places are never what you think they are going to be, mental or physical. Just go anyway with an open mind.

Physically, you can push your self further than you think you can, so just keep going till you pass out while your young.

Hallucinations can be as real as anything else in your life. Genuinely believing that your going to die is one of the most  eye opening experiences of your life.

Lack of sleep makes you weak, along with too much alcohol.

If you naturally lead people, they will follow. People without the time for other people are not worth spending your time over.

Your brain needs exercise, so do it. Don’t be afraid of approaching problems or things you need to learn. The whole point of learning anything mental or physical is that at the beginning you don’t know it, at the end, you do.  Then you just have to keep practicing and improving.

Money CAN be spent wisely when you really think about it.

Anything like music or games that you download, buy,  freeload, find, that you think you may be interested in, just check them out. Straight away, don’t constantly rotate over the same CDs, Piste, or friends, because you never know what the other side holds until you have a little go. A little is enough. One of the runs I went down on my snowboarding holiday this week I didn’t really like the look of and I didn’t feel like challenging myself turned out to be the most memorable, fast and visual run of the whole week. My mind was blown in the space of about two minutes, from total non-starter to soaking up the atmosphere with every pore available.

Just do stuff. Don’t be lazy, with people, work, or play.

DoxingNorth.

Week or so

This was the most intense week of my life. Natural, alcohol, and hangover based highs to my absolute mental lowlight of my life.

Xmas has passed again and nothing more interesting to say. It develops a whole new meaning after turning Atheist over summer. My meaning of xmas would most accurately be described as a method of exploiting people’s expired religious beliefs for financial gain and chillout time, along with an excuse to see your family, indulge a little, and eat a lot.  I worked Xmas day this year, missed almost nothing at home and made a shitload of cash for not much work in a really nice environment, with a bunch of friends. You can’t ask for much more than that can you? Then I came home to a nice dinner saved for me and a little catch up with some of my family. Awesome day  really.

I didn’t have to deal with any of the awkward little arguements or presents that get thrown around year in year out, I also didn’t have to get hammered around my family on free alcohol. As tempting as that sounds, it almost always ends badly, followed by a hangover.

Now I’m just sitting back, cold turkey sandwich in one hand, nice warm laptop in the other, freshly showered, dim lights and ‘Dark side of the moon’ up loud on my (un)necessarily expensive hifi.  About to watch a film with my Dad.  I feel pretty content, even if I am still recovering from my holiday and my subsequent, not quite so good, ‘trip’.

Xmas is still important.

dmas

Return

To write. You must write. And I return.

Gamma rays.

I will never see one.

I will see you soon.

And with that I come back to the land of the blog.

Dmhn.